When people meet each other, one is always reserved. You try to present the best of you, in order to impress. To be liked. To be part of the crowd. But if you are me, once the meeting is over you begin a thorough replay of the encounter. Did you say too much, did you not say enough? I recently read a blog post about possibly making yourself unfriendable. And as I read, I could not help but agree.
in college, I felt like I could get along with anyone and making
friends was easy. The things you had in common with someone else usually
instantly bonded you and a friendship was born. And just as it was easy
to make friends, it was just as easy to lose friends. As you go through
the process of actually growing up you realize that what may have
worked at first, no longer works. That I could be friendly but making
friendships that last...required more work than I was willing to put in.
Not because the people were not worth it, but because I feel like I am
not worth the effort. I feel like if I am the one that makes all the
plans...maybe the other person says yes out of pity. Or better yet if I
try to put it back on them to make a plan? And if they don't? Further
proof they never wanted to be my friend to begin with and so is my
Becoming a mom has let me sink further
into my solitude and most days I am okay with being alone with just the
kids. But then their are times that I wish I had a friend to call and
just get out the house with. Because the truth is I do have good friends
but most of them are scattered across the U.S. An email or a phone call
is nice but sometimes I just want what only a face to face can do.
to break the cycle? How to put myself out there and be okay with
rejection if it comes? And how can a bunch of women read the same
article I did and all feel the same and yet still feel so unfriendable?
Amazing things to think and ponder on.